This has been a hard month. You’re getting so many more teeth, and your mom has had severe pain & needed emergency treatment. We had nearly an entire day together that first day, from getting up, to your bath and bedtime.
I am desperately trying to learn to be more helpful… The longer I go in this new fangled parental responsibility, the more obvious it becomes to me how far I have to go personally to become the kind of dad I know you ultimately deserve. I call the goal itself Super Dad state of mind. How can I put my past behavior patterns aside in order to accomplish the following:
1- always be nice to everyone (thanks yo gabba gabba)
2- maintain a calmness & steadfastness of outward action, even under pressure, stress, or threatening incidental day today occurrences (like dodging poor drivers)
3- offer an emotional strength I know will be necessary at times to help repair if you’re ever disappointed or sad about losing something you valued, making a mistake, getting hurt, or otherwise damaging your feelings.
4- willpower to forgo time spent on my own special interests in order to get housework done as well as bills and other standard issue Dad stuff… Oil changes and other vehicle safety needs…
It’s just become clear to me (in ways that weren’t possible to imagine without having been through 7 months of life with a new tiny human) what I need to work on most to give you what I promised in my pact last father’s day.
